Again... The Crayon Box

Oh shit...

It's happening again.
Damn me, damn it all.
I'm fucking myself over,
can I stop it before its too late?

You mean more than the last,
but I'm doing the same.
I'm getting you mad and I'm pushing you away,
Why do I always screw myself over?
My mind is racing,
how do I stop this?
How do I quit?
I want the game to be over,
but not like this.
Sometimes you stop talking
and I feel like giving up
maybe I should.
I know I've lost (you.)
I just hope
that it doesnt happen again,
will you still be my friend?